Ok. I get ... Took me awhile. but I get it. Spent YEARS, trying to convince myself it wasnt me, the trouble was my heart didnt believe it. So then I got real. It is simply not my fault that you are to lazy to work for a relationship or just genuine compassion with all that promiscuous sex running around right? its like eating sunflower seeds. There are some that come unshelled right? So why get the ones in the shell, to much work involved. I could stay angry or blame my self, and really men and women are both accountable . I cant possibly see a modern man willing to risk getting real when he can just get laid. I tried really hard not to see this but, the more I realized that people will lie instead of opening their hearts, it wasnt to hard.
If I believed the hype, I would have to believe that somehow Im not worth it. That a woman who would cheat or sleep with anyone she wanted to just because she wanted to has more value than me, and you chose her CONSISTENTLY, then you become jaded and unwilling to do the work. well, I didnt give up, so what makes you think you get to?
I had a conversation with a man in which I told him the men Im interested in always have or wind up with girlfriends when I mentioned Im interested. You know what he told me?
"Maybe you should be the other woman, to have that experience, if you never have before, (which I havent) otherwise how long are you going to wait?.... take a risk. " Spoken like a true animal. I had to remind him that there are risk and then there is right and wrong.
I say that because animals are the only creatures who engage in procreation without conscience. Sleeping with someone with out even knowing a name ? widely practiced and Im thru feeling guilty because I have morals. I wont treat someone like a piece of plastic because they are to lazy to engage in HUMAN sexuality. Love evolved just like the rest of us people lets not forget.
